I am sitting here reflecting on the past week leading up having my surgery. It was barely a week ago that I was extremely nervous and was worried not concentrating and finally crying in a parking lot. I had my best friend Kara call me and bring me back down. I was pushing myself a little too hard to make sure everything was done. It was something I had always done in the past. It is something I need to stop.
The friendships I have developed as I proceed on this journey are truly amazing. I have never had friends where intimacy has occurred. I now can share an intimacy and discuss my feeling with a closeness I have never felt before. It is a important step in one's transition in making these kinds of friendships. It felt good over the last several days to have so many friends call, text or email wishing me all the best.
I know this is so right for me. As I boarded the plane on Friday afternoon a calmness overcame me. It was a seine feeling and for the first time they was no nervousness or being worried. I just felt happy.
On Saturday, Kara and I explored the city. We went shopping together, had a wonderful lunch of Montreal's famous smoked meat. After we took a horse and carriage ride through old Montreal. In the evening we met up with an old friend of mine Caroline and we all went to dinner to steakhouse in the village . It was a nice dinner and we all enjoyed each others companionship.
It was at this dinner that I shared something very personal with my best friend. I know Kara has come to Montreal with me to help and support me in this important stage of my life. I am sure I will appreciate her coming to the hospital see me and be here when I need her. I told her it is appreciated but was not the real reason I wanted her here with me. Kara is my best friend, we have become very close over the past year. I wanted Kara here with me to celebrate my life and the wonderful transformation they will occur in the next several days. I have never been happier in my life and I am feeling so calm right now and so glad that Kara can be her to share this intimate time with me.
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